Today, now that I am home and can process the last 4 days I am feeling better. The last few days were spent in Lawton, Oklahoma for my little brothers Army Basic training graduation. I was really looking forward to it. I have felt guilty for many years since I was in Air Force training when he walked across the stage for high school graduation. I managed to make it to his wedding a few years ago so I had it in my head nothing was going to stop me from being there this time. Many people do not understand the love in my heart for my brother. Because of the way we grew up, him and I became bonded. Most will never understand this relationship and I'm not going to try to explain it. He is one of the most important people in my life. My brother, J, means as much to me as my husband and my children. So being there to show him my love and support was my top priority.
We were able to see him march in his ACU's during the family day events chronicling the time he spent at basic. I was right there snapping photos of him.
Having been in the military and married to an Airman, I had a clue and deep understanding of what he was going to go through during training. I knew just how deep within himself he had to dig to find the strength to get through that very next moment. I knew how badly he had missed the real world and his family. I knew the obstacles, yelling, feeling of walking on eggshells as to avoid being "smoked" or "reamed".
I was so very proud of him and this amazing accomplishment. This is a huge deal for my brother. A great achievement most people did not think he was capable of. I knew he had it in him from the day I walked across the field. He started questioning me and my decision. I knew then he was curious. I knew he could and would do it someday. He has proven all the nay-sayers wrong.
NO, I am not his wife. NO, I am not his mother. But, I am his OLDER, BIGGER Sister and I will always cherish every moment and emotion with him. And I hope he does with me too. I am his biggest supporter!!
My brother is in the Army now!